…a big day. For many reasons, personal and professional.
From a personal perspective, I’ve passed the three week watershed of giving up smoking. Sometimes it is a total piece of cake, other times, well, let’s skim over those, they don’t last very long anyway.
It’s also just under two weeks since being admitted to hospital with a burst blood vessel in my neck – did I mention that giving up smoking must be bad for your health. As it stands, I have one eye which is normal, the other one opens about 75% as much as the normal one and the pupil is about half the size. There has frequently been exchanges at home where my wife and family have said “What’s wrong? What was that look for?”. Then I remind them, this is just how I look now!
I checked it out in the mirror and tried to convince myself it was improving, even to the point where I said to my wife “Hmmm, I think it’s getting better”. She disagreed. Always the realist she is. Thanks darling, a little encouragement goes a long way. I am working on the premise that the power of positive thinking can help my eye repair itself. Okay, I know, I’m f*ked, but I am not ready to admit that just yet. Apparently the headaches will ease over time and the doc says it might repair itself. So there.
Work-wise I’ve got alot on. I’m working on two projects, one software related, the other, more structural. The next two weeks are going to be really pivotal and there has been a fair amount of stress around them. The doc did say to take it easy. So I am. Kind of. I am working sensible, normal hours and not burning the midnight oil.
And I am exercising. Nothing earth shattering, but it can be a good way of maintaining a calmer outlook and approach.
That’s my rambling for the day. Now to go do some actual work.
“…did I mention that giving up smoking must be bad for your health”
I agree, I now cough and feel awful when I stop running, but when I smoked I felt much healthier. I guess the night is always darkest before the dawn or whatever.
I suspect that the phrase “the night is always darkest before the dawn” is poetic licence, dont expect too much 🙂
Ah, a fellow quitter! Wonderful! Quitting is so difficult isn’t it? They say the addiction to cigarettes is worse that heroin. Maybe I’ll take heroin! (just kidding ) Blessings to you. I will be praying for you and your condition. Do think positive. I believe that’s the most efficient way to heal from anything. And… it can’t hurt right? Peace
The power of positive thinking – it definitely can’t hurt any 🙂
Hey I wanted to say thank you for the positive reinforcement on my page. We may not know each other but I am proud of you for taking the initiative to quit and stick with it. Here’s wishing you all the best.
xoxo
Ashlyn 🙂
You too Ashlyn…..you can do it
A journey of a thousand steps, begins with an empty pack of cigarettes.
Your journey now is in the opposite direction, as far away from the temptation.
How is it going, btw? (Its easy to quit quitting, ya know what i mean)
It surely does. Its, ermmmm, going. I’m still resisting the urge to quit quitting, though I think the urge to strike one up will always be there, waiting, ready to catch me unawares.